I am so confused...

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...about my life (well, who aren't?)

Specifically, it's more on the area of work and live.

Currently, I am staying and working in Singapore. Which I can say has its own pro and cons. Well, the thing is...after three years, it's getting harder to live here with all those rising costs. (And boring too with the exception on the shopping part.)

Okay, I do have the option to come back home to Jakarta. But, there are a few matters that kinda make me thinking:

1. No car - Erm, how am I supposed to move to-and-fro without a car? Public transport is a big capital NO-NO in Jakarta unless you want to find yourself MUGGED (especially when you show that you are chinese with capital C and small eyes and fair skin). Call me paranoid. I am just trying to be safe.

2. Hard-core religion - this matter is specifically concerning my family esp. my Mum. She loves attending this religious services not limited to Sunday churches (which is good, I'm not against it). But it's kinda worrying me if she wants to drag me along (My level of religious is not up there yet). You know sometimes people will say like "Oh, it's ok if you don't want to." when it turns out that they are not OK at all with it. Hmm.

3. No private room - Mum uses my room, Bro uses my parent's room, then..where should I sleep? Sharing room with Mum? What if I want to sing in the middle of the night (when I have insomnia or something). What if I want to have my sweet-me-time? Call me selfish, but I do need this moment. But I can't force my mum to open a new room for me rite? Egoistic daughter. (I know I ask too much).

4. No Hollywood movie - This is kinda trivial but seriously, how on earth do our country manage to ban hollywood movie in the cinema? I am so not paying to watch a nurse washing hair in a spooky manner (a.k.a. Suster Keramas).

5. Slow internet connection - Hmm I guess I can learn to live with that. Slow is better than none (not really, it's frustrating too).

Oh well, do I think too much? Gee. Should I just stay here? But then again. Arghh! 

Don't talk about making other people happy when it's so difficult to make myself happy. 

(Selfish girl talking here, don't bother about me. =P)